I feel as though my whole life has been leading towards this very moment.Since I was just a collection of cells, swelling with promises of academic success.
Since my mother bore me into this wild world, everything I have done, everything I have seen, it has all been part of the master plan for this very point in my existence.
The time has come for me to begin my final year project.
The equivalent of a dissertation, for all you artsy students.
Third year biomedical sciences students are offered the choice of different project types, such as media, education or lab projects.
I, for reasons unknown to any man or woman, have decided to enter the barren land of the lab project.
I've come to realise pretty quickly what matters when doing lab-based work.Like knowing how to work out concentrations/volumes. Which I apparently don't know how to do.After a couple of days in the lab, I discover that my mathematics skills are rather rusty. I try to work out the volume of a reagent needed, desperately scribbling seemingly meaningless values down, until a massive brain-fart hits and the numbers and units morph into hieroglyphics on the page.
What is number?
Who is milliliter?
I soon realise that I'm being ridiculous and that it's very straight forward; if I just took my time to begin with and thought about it properly I could have avoided the temporary nuclear meltdown of my cerebral tissues. The panic subsides, and normality is restored.
I've been taking baby steps; plodding slowly on, one day at a time. If I look at my project in manageable weekly portions, rather than get in a tizz about the huge lab report which is due in a few weeks’ time, I can curb the stress and push the impending doom of deadlines to a closed off area of my mind. At least for the time being...Another thing I've learnt is that you can never read too much. There's always something new out there to read surrounding the topic you're working on. It NEVER. ENDS. Ever. And no matter what you say, or how rapidly you read the 7th Harry Potter book, it will take you 4 times longer than you anticipated to get through it all.